Rite of a Desperate Man
By Liath
Don't know how long
I've been sittin'here
Trying to figure things out
Try to straighten them out
I feel so much pain
During this time of hardship
It's hard to keep going
On everyday
I guess that's the price
That I pay
For taking gambles
And coming up short
Every morning when I wake up
I lay and stare at the wall
Debating up whether I should move
Or lay in bed and rot
It's been too long
Since I've felt alive
I think I've forgotten how bright
Things can be
Somehow I know
There's more to life
Than what I make of it
There's something hidden from me
So every morning I keep moving
I keep getting up
And carrying on
Though it's a struggle
Nauseating unrest
Intimidating situation
Overwhelming neglect
These things I serve myself
I take it everyday
Spoon fed each mouthfull
Through my own doing
Oh, here comes the airplane
I think about other things
To pass the time
Try to ease the pain
Nobody knows just how I feel
Maybe I've forgotten some people
Forgotten what's important
But it's all hazy
And I can't see the way
So I'll keep on movin'
I'll continue walkin'
Hoping to find the way
Back to life; back to happiness
And when my strength fades
And I come tumbling down
I will lay there for eternity
And wait for the end to come