My Suicide Note (written at age 16)

By Syn

This death that comforts my soul is welcoming. I now feel that any pain suffered was deserved by my filthy, muddy self. Selfishness and bitterness ate me up but was never directed towards any one single person. Just any who crossed my path. I tried to control this dependency, this rude obsession, this passion, but I was found weak and not able to power my own being. Sorry. I had many acquaintances, many people to talk to. To all of you: thanks for the time. I hope, truly, that I have not been too much of an inconvenience. Too much hassle. Too much pain and irritability. Once again I will sincerely say I'm sorry. My life had just been cramped up. I tried to take it out on myself rather than the one who is reading this but each time I was once again proved as failure. Sorry. I had nothing left except for the power of blame and once again not directed towards any one person, it was just habit. Everyone: sorry for all my inconveniences.

(Was intended to be an actual suicide note...not a poem)

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Copyright 1995 Syn
Published on Friday, June 25, 2004.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: I DON'T KNOW HOW OLD YOU ARE NOW, BUT I HOPE WHEN YOU REMEMBER THIS POEM YOU ARE SO GLAD YOU DIDN'T GO THROUGH WITH IT. I MYSELF FAILED TWICE, AND AT THE TIME I WANTED DEATH SO BADLY BUT LOOKING BACK I'M GLAD IT DIDN'T HAPPEN. PUT ALL THAT SADNESS YOU FEL

  • murder_in_clubland On Saturday, June 26, 2004, murder_in_clubland (388)By person wrote:

    very interesting well i hope your not writing any suicide notes lately. i heart yew~ss

  • Syn On Saturday, June 26, 2004, Syn (76)By person wrote:

    I wasn't say "wow, I wrote this when I was only 16..." I was merely pointing out that it isnt recent... geesh

  • A former member wrote: whats new, Many people at DP Wrote and writes suicide notes at this young of age, I wrote my first suicide poem at 13

  • K_Love On Friday, June 25, 2004, K_Love (525)By person wrote:

    Wow... thats hearbreaking and very sad. I would never want you to kill yourself. A lot of the things in this poem reminded me of things I went through awesome. Thank you for sharing. ~Kirsten~

  • glasshouse On Friday, June 25, 2004, glasshouse (548)By person wrote:

    Pitiful. Sorry it was ever written. Glad you're here to post it. -Glass

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