Amelioration

I am a bitch, I say peircing things when I'm angry, I'm fickled, I have a feather weight temper, I have little patience, I can fly off the handle for insignificant things, I will make you cry if you try to force me into a conversation that I am not ready to participate in, I am probably the most cynicle, negative person that I know, and I dont care about pleasing others at the expense of my own happiness.
I dont know who I am but Im trying to figure that out, and I am trying,(contrary to popular belief) to be less of the things that make me question the reasons people would have to befriend a person like me.
I do not want to be a person with so many unadmirable qualitites.
But for once, I would like to be the person who is not scolded. I would like to stand with others instead of standing alone agaisnt them. I want to be the one who's point of view is upheld and understood. I want to feel like I have some footing in this fucked up world.
I dont care for grudges, they are stupid things that stupid people do for equally stupid reasons.
Im not here to run over kittens with my pickup truck.
Im here for the same reason that you are, I have no earthly clue!
I want to be free to do whatever I want. I want to be allowed to make my own decisions and my own mistakes. I want to feel like I am not on trial.