My Two Loves

Confused
Betrayed
Not sure what to do next
Unknown is my future
Uncertain is my dreams
Never knowing which way to turn
Never knowing which way to breathe
Always hoping for something better
Always hoping that this feeling inside me
Will not disappear like before
Knowing that this time
This relationship
Could be different than all the others
Never sure what they are really feeling
Never sure what they are really thinking
Do I make them happy?
Do I make them smile?
Do I give them what they need?
Can I be what they need me to be?
Always questioning myself
Always wondering if I am good enough
For them
For myself
For what they are offering me
Do I even have anything to truly offer them
Other than a broken heart
Other than a bruised soul
Other than a load of baggage
That follows from other relationships before
What if I make another mistake?
What if I get hurt again?
What if I am not good enough for them?
What if I hurt them somehow?
Always doubting myself
Knowing my faults all too well
Seeing myself crumble
When ever I try to stand tall
But that is the way healing goes
At least I think that is how it goes
Soon I will be strong enough
To be good enough for them
For they only deserve the best
Because I love them
With all that I am
And all that I have left
And all that I will have in the future
I love them completely
For all time
And always