sentenced to lonliness

my lonliness is not a state of mind.nor
is it a by-product of any depression.my
lonliness is not a lonliness void of
people.there are many people in my life.
this lonliness i own is not a form of
self-pity that has controlled the will.it
is not a lonliness i wear on my face.
indeed,it is very well hidden.in my deepest
inner most being i am lonely to the point
of being emotionally crippled.i am lonely
to the core of my exsistence and it has
crushed me as a person.my lonliness is
killing my two fondest desires...the
desire to love and the desire to give.
the desire to actually be loved by
another person died several years ago.my
entire being wants to give my love and
devotion to another person.that will
never happen and i have accepted it.there is
no person to love.i was predestined and
preordained to be alone.it is my fate.
it is my lot in life.i have completely
accepted it.the lonliness has defeated
me.it has taken away my desire to love.
all that remains is another night...alone.