What it Means to Say Goodbye

I have tasted the bitterness
That comes with goodbyes
One too many times
And I'd like to say it's over

Like to say I'm fine

But like the acid
Seething from your lips
The eye of the storm
Never soothes like it used to

It was only you who could soothe my storms

I feel like playdoh
The object of a child's
Amusing manipulations
Molded into everything

Everything you wanted that I could never be

I'm sorry it had to hurt me
More than it hurt you
For it's the pain inside
That kept me here so long

I thought you were the ointment for my scars

Oh how I would love
To take the knife from my back
And twist it fiercely
Into your heart

But I am inclined to assume your heart is concrete

Nothing would feel better
Than to wrap my arms so tight
Around your reluctant body
Nothing would make me happier

But your happiness doesn't fit me well

I suppose I can live with knowing
That I will take up a sliver
Of your memory bank
As much as you don't want it

And maybe when you think of my leaving, a tinge of regret will swell

This is the last time
I will say goodbye
Without meaning it



...whytt*04