My Own Conviction

By Jaded Jezzabelle

This is an old poem one of my very first...

I don't understand your compultion to lie
or your need to apply a definition
to everything according to you

You can tie me down
you can force me to pretend that I agree
But my mind cannot be bound
and I won't be defined
by your narrow minded labels

Your eyes penetrate me
you long to get into my head
to know what makes me tick
my reply to your questioning gaze

I embrace freedom of expression
I need it to move forward
on this journey

I dream in vivid colors of ghosts
who seem tp protect me with a misty presence
and wake me with rain at dusk

I love the feel of silk against my skin
and the low rumble of horsepower
under the hood

I long for the faint cry
of a
slow sad saxaphone
and
the hollow thump
of a
base guitar

I lose myself in lurid thoughts
filled with dark brooding images
and
I fall for the bad boy
each and every time

I ache for rough hands
on
soft skin
and
I pray for redemption
of my
many wicked sins

Iam what Iam a contradiction
confined by my addiction
I'll never be who you want me to be

I will not live by your prediction
so don't ask me to play a part
for which I was not cast
to be who I am not
or to live outside the realm
of what is real

I don't need your truths to set me free
you see
I have found my own conviction

So believe me when I tell you
I cannot and will not
reside inside
your hallucination

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Copyright 2004 Jadedwings
Published on Monday, January 5, 2004.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • Mr King On Thursday, January 8, 2004, Mr King (547)By person wrote:

    powerful... self affirming... free... alive... i love it!

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Wednesday, January 7, 2004, Jaded Jezzabelle (328)By person wrote:

    thank you

  • Methos On Tuesday, January 6, 2004, Methos (121)By person wrote:

    Jaded, this is a wonderful piece that reaches beyond the soul, pulling at the inner self, in all of us. A masterpiece of darkness...Bravo! -Methos

  • xX pretty vacant Xx On Monday, January 5, 2004, xX pretty vacant Xx (64)By person wrote:

    well fucking said! it's impossible to be someone you're not and it sucks when people want you to be. great write.

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