dying yet reborn again

The last time you told me id be fine
I ended up with a bullet in my side
The last time you told me id be ok
That was when I ran away
When I was in the hospital
You said that both our lives would grow

That was when my life began to slowly drain away
The harder I fought the easier it was to just stay away

Laying in a hospital bed
Thinking all the words that I would dread
? My heartbeat is slowing?
And my breath is becoming shallower

In my mind a dark shadow stands
Where my wonderful light once began

My side hurts every second
And the pain grows I just cant stand it

You repeat that I?ll be ok
But I know that in this life I was chosen not to stay

My heart has stopped and now I know
All the things you told me to show

A long dull sound begins in my head
And surely now you think that I am dead

The cold blankets begin to get warm
As my blood begins to slowly sip out of me

I feel a tug pulling me down
Away from a heaven that I would have found
I felt no pain
But it begins again
Then all at once I?m alive again

My heart begins to beat and I feel reborn
My body draws a single breath

And warmth rushes in?.

Why am I back in this dying world?
Where all that I have worked for began to mold?
Is it time to start a new life?
Just so it could be lost again?