Beauty and Victory

Christ Vice.../
assistant 2 Christ/
but sometimes i feel like a human survival experiment.../
partly by God, partly by nature, partly by the U.S. government/

a life of suffering in chaos and confusion can make a person feel crooked and bent.../
luckily 4 me, i lasted thru my trials, saw the Light, and realized
The Higher Purpose 4 which i was sent/
another paradox of the human condition solved by connecting 2 the Almighty One
and choosing 2 be intelligent/

so call me then the 'genius oxy-moron'.../
or simply 'nobody-special'.../
mapping out more important territory where before there was none/

i don't walk the straight and narrow path always.../
still knowledge, wisdom, and intelligence keep me safe and sound anyways/

propelled by the sun's rays.../
and visions of brighter days/
inspired by incredible blue skies.../
as i saw in my green eyes/

What Dreams May Come.../
i left the blind dog-eat-dog world behind for the more real world in my visions
and progressive imagination.../
i chose 2 be 2 me what was an instrument of the Creator, 4 a greater universal
future of all Creation/
upon this eclectic path of elevation, emancipation, love, and celebration/

this message and i may seem like a bizarre half encoded psychological exhibit.../
and i might have edited away much of this book except 2 display the extreme
contents of my mind and what's in it/

so, i left it all in there.../
2 preserve the artistic integrity.../
and perhaps 2 show the entire range of my ego-maniacal obsession and insanity/

4 the record.../
before I ever knew what 'Straight Edge' was.../
i was alcohol, drug, and promiscuous sex free until the age of 18/
where upon i drank many a beer.../
in my first college year/

also you should understand me 2 be 100% cocaine, heroine, and LSD free.../
although i did go thru one rather mild drug phase in my late 20's with ecstasy.../
admittedly, i'm not marijuana free.../
which i enjoy mostly on special occasions only.../
1 day i also still will likely try peyote.../
which is holy and sacred 2 the Cherokee/

and i do really have manic-depression.../
which results in extreme highs and lows.../
ecstatic and personal visionary shows.../
but also very dark emotional lows/

this was mostly just before i started taking depakote medication/
and i'm not here at all 2 promote any American legal drug pushing pharmaceutical corporation/
but understand i inherited a very intense chemical brain condition/

this condition did however add immeasurably 2 the range of my poetic and artistic creation/

(The Lord works in mysterious ways?!)

perhaps this is just 2 much information.../
but like Wu and Pootie Tang, i'm just 'keepin' it real'/
you can read and think about this, but also you should feel/
leaving behind my mental tracks now in this written sand 4 you.../
another strong spiritual hand 2 help guide you thru/
just another voice of encouragement telling you 2 never give up on you.../
4 there are just too many things in this life that you were meant 2 do/
the world of beauty, peace, and victory can truly await you/
4 you who choose it, this is true.../