slut without apologies (where pills fail me)

By KittyStryker

all right

so maybe
i like spending
most of my time
with my hands
between my legs
maybe
i like a little
kink
with my
love
maybe
i'm happiest
when i'm in bed
with someone
feeling them
slam
into me
hard
rough
fierce
cum
and emotions flow
with it
sticky sweet
and
tender

call me
a slut
if it'll make you understand
or say
i'm a free spirit

wanna know
why
i am such
a whore?
why
i succumb
to slavery
to being sacrificed
over and again?

because

i don't allow myself
to express
feelings
in the canned soup
we call life

i let myself
go bland

but
in sex
in bondage
in pure
unadulterated
fucking

i can be me
i can cry
and scream
and let my feelings go

i can be helpless
and needy
and vulnerable
and loved

and
the sweet relief
of orgasm
tires me out
so that i
can recover
from the intensity
of feeling
everything
i left
bottled
on forgotten dusty inner shelves

the comfort
of a warm body
next to me
makes me realize
i'm not alone
and i
am
at last
untroubled
at peace
safe

so yes
i love sex
and i
am a kinky little minx
i like my pleasure
with a touch of pain

i won't apologize

and this is why

sex
allows me
to be the person i am within
i can fight
i can lose
and it's all right
i can be
frail
weak
and it makes me more desirable

i don't want to be an equal

i want
to be
fucked

i want
to be forced
to enjoy myself
to let go

i want my hair pulled
as my cunt
is filled
with thick
hot
humanity
i want to be
slammed into
i want
to be an animal
who is just driven
by primal desires
reasonable fears
and never
ever
doubt
i want to be able
to struggle
and weep
and cry out
and yet
have my emotions
pour out
in spite
of
me

there is
more therapy
in sex
than i have ever found
in pills
and roundabout questions

more safety
in bondage
and leather whips
than i ever felt
in leather chairs
and the bondage
of
hospitalization

sex
allows me
to be
myself
without
having
to justify

in the buckled restraints
that i strain against
in the floggings
that burn my skin
in the feral way
i am
fucked

there is
salvation




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Copyright 2003 ~Bast~
Published on Tuesday, December 2, 2003.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • A former member wrote: 'i can fight i can lose and its alright' wow..... this is incredible

  • xserratedsoulx On Monday, January 28, 2008, xserratedsoulx (212)By person wrote:

    gorgeous. i love the line 'i want to be forced to enjoy myself.'

  • XxDarkPhilosopherxX On Sunday, December 9, 2007, XxDarkPhilosopherxX (3)By person wrote:

    Great work... simply amazing !

  • xserratedsoulx On Monday, March 5, 2007, xserratedsoulx (212)By person wrote:

    i.am.breatheless. fucking beautiful.

  • Dei On Tuesday, January 16, 2007, Dei (665)By person wrote:

    this was perfect.

  • Methos On Sunday, December 31, 2006, Methos (121)By person wrote:

    A truly wonderful picture you painted. Shallow waters, covering over depths that i fathom are limitless. Very interesting work, a personal fav...-Methos

  • A former member wrote: Unbelieveable...simply left me speechless. Incredible imagery and emotion. I felt like I could not only see what you were saying but feel it as well. Awesome

  • K_Love On Wednesday, August 16, 2006, K_Love (525)By person wrote:

    Beautifully said. I'm floored. All my words have completely left my mouth, I bow down to this :)

  • TornPaperDoll On Monday, May 15, 2006, TornPaperDoll (63)By person wrote:

    I understand this...i have tried to portray this in many works but i just end up looking easy.No...when it comes to sex...us woman have more power than we know!LOVE IT! TPD

  • A former member wrote: I don't know what to say . . . Amazing fucking Amazing .

  • sIo On Sunday, October 2, 2005, sIo (926)By person wrote:

    s p e e c h l e s s

  • sIo On Sunday, July 16, 2006, sIo (926)By person wrote:

    speechless again. amazing write.

  • Sticky Kitty On Saturday, July 16, 2005, Sticky Kitty (242)By person wrote:

    wow. left me utterly breathless. This sent shivers down my spine. You're so fucking honest about everything. It's amazing. -kitty

  • Black_Cherry_Doll_ On Friday, January 7, 2005, Black_Cherry_Doll_ (69)By person wrote:

    Theres nothing else I can say that anyone hasn't already. Brilliant, I love the peek into your soul, which reminds me of mine :)--Steph!!

  • Lotophagi On Monday, October 25, 2004, Lotophagi (333)By person wrote:

    this is just brilliant, and amazing... Thank you.

  • Lord Kalgalath On Saturday, August 21, 2004, Lord Kalgalath (182)By person wrote:

    gods... i love it excellent work Bast

  • Raze Drake On Saturday, February 7, 2004, Raze Drake (85)By person wrote:

    great piece Bast. Congrats on making the Best of DarkPoetry 2003 Finalist.

  • capt_funguy On Saturday, January 24, 2004, capt_funguy (778)By person wrote:

    your formula for salvation simply can't fail - if you came up with this concept yourself - you're a genius , if someone clued you in , thank them - monumental piece - funguy

  • A former member wrote: not many words to do justice to something as monumental as this... how about....... good.... real, real good ;)

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Friday, January 9, 2004, Jaded Jezzabelle (328)By person wrote:

    Touche...Im feelin you!!! Never beenall the way there... except in my mind...but I kinda thought it would be like being set free of the security blanket that we all carry around. yet it keeps us bound...ya know??? great write I admire you candor!!!

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Friday, January 9, 2004, Jaded Jezzabelle (328)By person wrote:

    Your candor!!!ooopps

  • Drea On Monday, January 5, 2004, Drea (1443)By person wrote:

    Kitty, i don't think i have smiled this much in a long time. I adore this (and you). This is an automatic fav. Wonderful. ~Drea~

  • Sky Singer On Monday, January 5, 2004, Sky Singer (153)By person wrote:

    yay!! so glad to see it back! :) and of you don't mind, may i take a quote from this for my profile??? (thought i'd ask before i piss someone off ^_^) i think if i add anymore to this comment, it's just gonna be what everyone else said. regardless, thi

  • Sky Singer On Monday, January 5, 2004, Sky Singer (153)By person wrote:

    ---this was heavy, deep, and an absolulety stunning piece of work. ::standing ovation::

  • KittyStryker On Monday, January 5, 2004, KittyStryker (711)By person wrote:

    take all you want, luvvie, all the words i've said have been said before. :) thanks for the compliment!

  • Sky Singer On Tuesday, January 6, 2004, Sky Singer (153)By person wrote:

    ::smiles:: thanks a bunch! and you're more than welcome for the comment

  • unusual_blood On Friday, December 5, 2003, unusual_blood (74)By person wrote:

    It is as if ur feelings, both physical and mental, have been wrenched out and have been placed in writing. It's fucking amazing. 100% true. Round of applause!!!

  • unusual_blood On Friday, December 5, 2003, unusual_blood (74)By person wrote:

    Disturbing in a great sense, deep with truth, it's direct and orignaly expressed. I loved "in the canned soup we call live". I loved it all. Never apologize.

  • Blinded_Tiger On Friday, December 5, 2003, Blinded_Tiger (518)By person wrote:

    The depth is supreme. Kind of sit and think of a girl that wants to scream out her feelings. Hell this made me want to scream. I get frustrated when reading about people that have more inside then they can get out. I think I know that feeling aswell.

  • Blinded_Tiger On Friday, December 5, 2003, Blinded_Tiger (518)By person wrote:

    The connection and the salvation in sex... Well cheers, you are going on my favorite list. Tiger

  • cre On Tuesday, December 2, 2003, cre (411)By person wrote:

    I enjoyed this . . alot of truth in it you know . . some people fold in upon themselves and wither away when they can't express themselves in ways that seem to be the norm . . the rest of us just find alternate forms of expression . . nice write.

  • Mistress Shadow On Tuesday, December 2, 2003, Mistress Shadow (252)By person wrote:

    This is very indepth about yourself, and I must say I love the line "in the canned soup we call life". Good job.~T~

  • A former member wrote: Wow, this is an incredible description of sex and it's pros. This is a beautifully written poem into the mind of you. Needless to say - I absolutely loved it. C-ya. ~ Asheai

  • A former member wrote: This helps me understand your type of thinking. Yay!


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