Admiration in Secret

By Cattarax

Forgive me for I'm abrasive with my brashness

Tomorrow I could be better … If only I cared to try…

My knees are covered in blood again
I insist on I'm sorry confessions
Just to leave the penance unfulfilled

Devouring innocence leaves a strange after.taste

Today I craved perfection just to attract your attention
Yesterday I etched euphoria with discarded eye lashes
Tomorrow treachery, torment, and desperation
All to see the way you will react … If at all...

Still words will fail to portray what it is that I want

Which is to bask in your vernacular glory…
I'd turn you into a divine deity
Build a shrine comprised of prose
Demand sacrificial offerings, before anyone can taste how one of your lines echoes through the mind…

And I bet you dont know how much I admire your word play
Aspiring to drench myself in your subtle greatness
If you knew I would adorn your perfectly carved grammatical foreplay
You would purposefully taint and dilute it
The metaphors would turn sour and the stanzas would lack emotion

When confronted about your new found mediocre compromised composures
A slight twitch in your eye would be the only tell tale sign
That admiration was never your strong point
And
You are content with appearing flawed

So
For now,
More than likely forever…
I will admire you with backstage passes
Yearning one day to be the muse
To vile inoculations of grace indulged horror

Though such venomous beauty would be devastating…

Love,
Your Secret Admirer

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Copyright 2019 Cattarax
Published on Tuesday, June 18, 2019.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • 13sonsofgod On Thursday, June 27, 2019, 13sonsofgod (900)By person wrote:

    You have my total attention my lady..... You place your words with perfection, this admiration is no secret !!! Well done !

  • zebra black On Thursday, June 20, 2019, zebra black (145)By person wrote:

    I love the sentiment in this poetic theater of desire. Its very pleasing in a kind of erotically voyeuristic way to feel the romantic idyllic aspirations of a young woman … HOT HOT HOT :)


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