I shudder to think of a future its true
Where I Grow into a version of myself without
who will I confide in,
When the darkness cosumes me....
Whose going to make me smile,
Will anyone know the true me?
I act as though Im strong,
but i must confess...
Most of that is simply awkward stubbornness.
I imagine spring forming.
After the coldest winters...
Flowers will bud and I wont even notice.
They'll die before they even bloom
and I wont be able to care.
The earths beauty will make me cry,
The greenest trees,
Fresh summer air.
These are the moments i will miss you most,
I dont know how ill survive.
How does a girl manage to lose her bestfriend, her mother and entire life..
be expected to keep going.
Every single year this day tears at my soul,
Followed by june,
With it's pointless fathers day when i have no where to go....
So its hard to not think about being in same place,
When tons of years from now,
I also wont be able to see your face..
And may will blend to june,
Summer into fall,
Am I even strong enough to life without you at all?
I shudder to think of my future its true.
You made me,
you molded me,
Your my rock,
Ill never be even half of me,