Internal struggle

By overthinkervampire

I started on a stormy night ,
Inspired by the flashing light
And by the heavy raindrops fall ,
Searched for a soul my friend to call .

Been searching for just one friend only
To make my life not feel so lonely
Reached out to other human beings ,
Just have a talk and share our feelings

A lover no - chapter long ended
Friendship is real , love's overrated .
And throgh the days for you I seek
I didn't realize I grew weak .

I tried to change the way I live
If I hurt you then please forgive
It hurts so much if I remain
I cannot handle this much pain

And in my mirror - self I see
A stranger that I used to be .
Literature's first enemy
Ended up writing poetry .

The loneliness or friends on screen ?
Believe - I want both sides to win
The sorrow on my weakened soul
Feels like it's sucked through a black hole
A soul that's simply torn apart
By pressure on my once strong heart .

Part of me still wants to try
Another part is asking : why ?
Why try when it just makes you cry ?
I just don't want to say goodbye .

It's time to go - time to be me
Yet I don't wish to be that free
To lock myself back in my tower
My loneliness to give me power
To be again as cold as ice
The guy that I would recognize

And if my friend I do not meet
Some day I might just press " delete "
And unless deletion works
I will become one of the ghosts
Below my picture it will show :
He was online some years ago ...

Look for a sign , I gaze outside
Soon starts another stormy night
And underneath my close street light
I watch the show of nature's fight

A group of bats are hunting flies
They might be friends or just allies
They're very fast , can barely see
My heart is beating rapidly
The insects simply have no chance
Against the predator's swift dance .

I start to wonder : are they friends ?
Or are they just means to an end ?
And deep inside my messed-up head
I wonder : can I be a friend ?

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Copyright 2019 overthinkervampire
Published on Friday, March 8, 2019.     Filed under: "Poetry"

Author's Note:

From a lonely romanian vampire to the world
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  • Divine hell On Wednesday, March 20, 2019, Divine hell (169)By person wrote:

    Awesome write, welcome to dark poetry looking forward to more. :)

  • bpathos On Thursday, March 14, 2019, bpathos (91)By person wrote:

    welcome to DP. This was thought out. I liked it.

  • Renegade On Wednesday, March 13, 2019, Renegade (29)By person wrote:

    The search of a friend can be a hard road to travel by but the destination isn't always so clear. Look where you have been, find the people you've met along the way. We're all searching for someone. Mayhaps someone is searching for you as well. I wish you luck on your travels.

  • Chelsey Elaine On Friday, March 8, 2019, Chelsey Elaine (108)By person wrote:

    People who write don't have the choice to stop. ink runs through our veins hun. I really liked this stanza ... " And in my mirror - self I see A stranger that I used to be . Literature's first enemy Ended up writing poetry " keep up the good work xo

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