I started on a stormy night ,
Inspired by the flashing light
And by the heavy raindrops fall ,
Searched for a soul my friend to call .
Been searching for just one friend only
To make my life not feel so lonely
Reached out to other human beings ,
Just have a talk and share our feelings
A lover no - chapter long ended
Friendship is real , love's overrated .
And throgh the days for you I seek
I didn't realize I grew weak .
I tried to change the way I live
If I hurt you then please forgive
It hurts so much if I remain
I cannot handle this much pain
And in my mirror - self I see
A stranger that I used to be .
Literature's first enemy
Ended up writing poetry .
The loneliness or friends on screen ?
Believe - I want both sides to win
The sorrow on my weakened soul
Feels like it's sucked through a black hole
A soul that's simply torn apart
By pressure on my once strong heart .
Part of me still wants to try
Another part is asking : why ?
Why try when it just makes you cry ?
I just don't want to say goodbye .
It's time to go - time to be me
Yet I don't wish to be that free
To lock myself back in my tower
My loneliness to give me power
To be again as cold as ice
The guy that I would recognize
And if my friend I do not meet
Some day I might just press " delete "
And unless deletion works
I will become one of the ghosts
Below my picture it will show :
He was online some years ago ...
Look for a sign , I gaze outside
Soon starts another stormy night
And underneath my close street light
I watch the show of nature's fight
A group of bats are hunting flies
They might be friends or just allies
They're very fast , can barely see
My heart is beating rapidly
The insects simply have no chance
Against the predator's swift dance .
I start to wonder : are they friends ?
Or are they just means to an end ?
And deep inside my messed-up head
I wonder : can I be a friend ?