Today I found myself,
but honestly it took falling really hard on my ass.
People who I thought were my friends
People who I thought loved me
pushed me away.
People who were always there
told me that I was emotionally needy.
The very people that I thought would never judge me
threw the first stone.
Now I'm not complaining,
I know I can be hell to deal with,
but if you say you're going to "always" be there,
'Always' be there.
My thoughts were manifesting into nightmares.
My dreams were no more.
I experienced a hurt that felt like a thousand deaths
all in single spirts of subconscious hell.
I told you, that you too, would leave my side.
"No... I'm not going anywhere", he said.
And in what seemed like forever in a torture chamber,
he was gone.
I speak of my twin flame in soul.versing
and I meant every word.
We were inseparable, that is, until I became unstable.
Whatever, I'm over it, I say.
But no I'm not.
I'm only human and I only have one heart.
Now I'm picking up my shattered pieces
and throwing them to the wind
because that's not who I want to be anymore.
I'm soul searching myself.
I'm learning to love me.
I'm putting me before them.
And I'm leaning towards taking risks.
I'm bound to this shell and I'm going to live in the moments.
I found my Devine path and here's to a new beginning.