1212

By soul_versing

1212

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Today I found myself,
but honestly it took falling really hard on my ass.
People who I thought were my friends
abandoned me.
People who I thought loved me
pushed me away.
People who were always there
told me that I was emotionally needy.
And finally,
The very people that I thought would never judge me
threw the first stone.

Now I'm not complaining,
I know I can be hell to deal with,
but if you say you're going to "always" be there,
Then please...
'Always' be there.


My thoughts were manifesting into nightmares.
My dreams were no more.
I experienced a hurt that felt like a thousand deaths
all in single spirts of subconscious hell.

I told you, that you too, would leave my side.
"No... I'm not going anywhere", he said.

And in what seemed like forever in a torture chamber,
he was gone.

I speak of my twin flame in soul.versing
and I meant every word.
We were inseparable, that is, until I became unstable.

Whatever, I'm over it, I say.

...I say.

But no I'm not.

I'm only human and I only have one heart.


Now I'm picking up my shattered pieces
and throwing them to the wind
because that's not who I want to be anymore.

I'm soul searching myself.
I'm learning to love me.
I'm putting me before them.
And I'm leaning towards taking risks.

I'm bound to this shell and I'm going to live in the moments.


I found my Devine path and here's to a new beginning.


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Copyright 2019 J.L. Odom
Published on Tuesday, February 5, 2019.     Filed under: "Graphic Art"

Author's Note:

I didn't proofread, good luck! πŸ€ͺπŸ€£πŸ’‹
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  • Candy Cain On Tuesday, February 5, 2019, Candy Cain (39)By person wrote:

    I love reading what you post. These pieces always hit me in a way few things do, mirroring feelings I’ve known. I appreciate what you do.

  • soul_versing On Wednesday, February 6, 2019, soul_versing (1224)By person wrote:

    Thank you so much for being supportive an taking your time to read me. I'm learning so much about myself lately and it feels good to know that I'm relatable. .hugs.   Scholar

  • Commander_Cadaver On Tuesday, February 5, 2019, Commander_Cadaver (240)By person wrote:

    Heartbreaking and, sadly, an all too relatable position to be put in. It's hard to trust people these days, then things like this happen only to show others why you rarely trust them. Fucking people. Amazing write as always, as painful as it is.

  • soul_versing On Tuesday, February 5, 2019, soul_versing (1224)By person wrote:

    Thank you, love. I've learned to sit back and be the observer rather than being the interpreter. I have dreams and goals and I'm going to protect them and keep on keeping on. Period πŸ–€ much loveπŸ’‹ Scholar

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