Edgless Edge

I miss the rush of Cocaine
Almost like a sexual pain.
Being sluggish and slow
Never happened with Blow.
I was active and vocalized
I miss it, even I'm surprised.
Cutting and lining I'd excel
For once, not cutting myself.
I need an edgeless edge to take
The pain I caused, a mistake.
I have self control for now
To my old habits, I might bow.
I can't guarantee how long
6 feet down, where I belong.
It isn't really so far down
But, I forfeit for My Crown.
To be numb without pain
But, I'll cut down the vein.
Until I'm finally okay again
Like I was back then.
I'll chop myself a line
Slowly, getting it fine.
For I know it's just Cocaine
Well, at least is isn't my vein..