yes...

By worm

as I sit here wondering
just what I should write about
I am, again, startled with thoughts of you

I am amazed by the tenacity
that you showed throughout your life

when we first met, I was an outlaw
living on the edge of society'€™s norms
while you were the Heir Apparent
to your parents vast fortunes

it was like gasoline and fire right from the start
an all-consuming conflagration of wild times

when your parents found out, they demanded
that you should come back to your senses
and leave that "€œdirty, filthy piece of scum!"

when you laughed in the face of their demands
they fell back on their second wave of attack

that is when they offered you the moon
if you would only come back home

little did they know that you were already home!

they were convinced that you were just acting out
that you were using me to pay them back
for some ill-conceived slight
that would bring them embarrassment
when the country club crowd
finally found out

it was never about them

it just always seemed to me
that your parents knew so little about love
that they could not recognize the fact
that love had finally taken up
that lonely space in both our hearts

now that you are gone
hardly a day goes by that I do not feel anguish
at the thought that I was left here, alone
without you...

it has been six years, three months and thirteen days
since you returned to your family's embrace...

finally, after what seemed like the thousandth time
your Mother actually acknowledged my existence

as I was standing there, lost in my lonely dreams
I felt her hand as it timidly reached out
across that indefinable gulf
to touch mine

for what seemed like forever
the two of us stood there
with no animosity between us

then, as I turned to go I heard her say
"you really did love her?"

as a tear traced its way down my face
€œ"she was my heart, my life, my love"

as I put a single white rose on your headstone
she asked, "€œwould you come see me?"

as I looked at her I saw only the lonely desperation
of a Mother reaching out to embrace a lost love

"I'€™m embarrassed to admit this, but I would like
to know what my little girl was like as an adult"

God! how I wanted to scream into her face, "NO!"

then I realized just what it cost her
to come to me, here
in your final resting place
to make that gesture
to ask that question
and I thought about
what you would
want me to do

I replied

"yes"


© RLF 8-25-01

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Copyright 2003 worm
Published on Sunday, September 14, 2003.     Filed under: "Poetry"
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  • Cassette On Wednesday, January 3, 2018, Cassette (1251)By person wrote:

    powerful

  • A former member wrote: that you could reach out and offer comfort in your time of grief tells much

  • worm On Sunday, October 8, 2017, worm (1319)By person wrote:

    HH... sometimes the flame of the fight gets tempered by loss... and to honor those who are now gone, it is, perhaps best, to allow compassion to fill a bit of the loneliness which has hollowed out our hearts... Thanks for reading!

  • carlosjackal On Sunday, October 8, 2017, carlosjackal (2471)By person wrote:

    This was a brilliant, heart-rending piece of poetic narrative honesty.

  • worm On Sunday, October 8, 2017, worm (1319)By person wrote:

    Carlos... coming from you, whom I hold much respect for, I am vastly honored! Thank you!

  • Wr1tt3n V3ng3anc3 On Wednesday, September 6, 2017, Wr1tt3n V3ng3anc3 (187)By person wrote:

    "when we first met, I was an outlaw living on the edge of society'€™s norms while you were the Heir Apparent to your parents vast fortunes" These lines stand out to me and are favored. I appreciate how raw this piece is, it has a beauty and seriousness. the upmost respect and condolence to you. Well weaved

  • worm On Thursday, September 7, 2017, worm (1319)By person wrote:

    Thank you for your kind comments! it's nice when someone reads my older pieces... :-)

  • RetalicD On Saturday, August 12, 2017, RetalicD (27)By person wrote:

    im sorry... "-( your poem is AMAZING i feel your pain and i feel her

  • worm On Saturday, August 12, 2017, worm (1319)By person wrote:

    thank you!

  • A former member wrote: Wow, Honey. That's really all I can say. My family reacted similarly when I married my now ex husband when I was eighteen years old. My ex is still alive and kicking, but the sense of loss I feel from reading this poem is almost physical. I hope that I did this justice. Rebs:).

  • worm On Friday, July 14, 2017, worm (1319)By person wrote:

    Rebs, thank you for reading this one... it is special to me... your poems are like your kids... and this is the good kid!

  • PoetessDarkly On Friday, January 25, 2013, PoetessDarkly (1024)By person wrote:

    it takes a very big person to forgive. you will always have a piece of your lady love when you opened your heart to her parent. lovely words. I am glad i stopped to read.

  • DarkDruidess On Saturday, November 3, 2012, DarkDruidess (357)By person wrote:

    My throat just clenched up...this was a painful wake up call and I needed that kick in the ass...Thank you! My heart goes out to you...

  • Black_Poison On Sunday, May 6, 2012, Black_Poison (32)By person wrote:

    It was just so beautiful... the start reminded me of the movie the notebook but the ending was the best!

  • Shadows_onthe_RoAd On Saturday, February 20, 2010, Shadows_onthe_RoAd (9)By person wrote:

    Im new and a misinterpreted type reader so i had to read it twice but as a read it i felt my mind and my heart separating like that choice of yes and no was weighed on a scale and hard to choose ... i really liked it

  • Dead_Opheliac On Saturday, February 20, 2010, Dead_Opheliac (13)By person wrote:

    This really tugged at my heart strings. Beautiful write.

  • A former member wrote: Very beautiful , thank you for sharing

  • Rowan On Saturday, February 20, 2010, Rowan (295)By person wrote:

    Wow. That was so passionate, heartfelt, amazing...

  • Spiritus_Frumenti On Saturday, February 20, 2010, Spiritus_Frumenti (343)By person wrote:

    This was a tear jerker, it was like watching one of those sad lifetime movies...it was simple & honest...usually those are the best pieces...awesome work - l -

  • punk mc cool On Saturday, February 20, 2010, punk mc cool (79)By person wrote:

    woah this is the best poem of the day ever i really enjoyed reading it....

  • Winter Born On Friday, May 1, 2009, Winter Born (170)By person wrote:

    Wow! This poem slipped a poison stained blade between my ribs to puncture my heart... I bow before your prowess. Faved.

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Friday, March 13, 2009, Jaded Jezzabelle (332)By person wrote:

    every time i read this i cry

  • Echoes of Orpheus On Sunday, November 16, 2008, Echoes of Orpheus (384)By person wrote:

    my kind of poem... the kind that will kill me every time I read it

  • Circe Avalon On Wednesday, June 25, 2008, Circe Avalon (117)By person wrote:

    This is an amazing work. No matter how many times I read a similar situation they all end with a deep heartbreak. But you have strength that most do not. Very good write.

  • WickedAngel On Tuesday, June 24, 2008, WickedAngel (24)By person wrote:

    My heart is breaking for you, tears pouring, I'm so glad you shared this with everyone. Thanks! -Trish

  • A former member wrote: &heart; i get different kinds of feelings from this.. so so beautiful..

  • insideout On Wednesday, March 12, 2008, insideout (48)By person wrote:

    This is truly beautiful..

  • A former member wrote: i am crying... need i say more?

  • skully On Sunday, January 6, 2008, skully (44)By person wrote:

    wow-I've got tingles running down my spine.Amazing thanks :-)

  • qrt_inch On Wednesday, October 3, 2007, qrt_inch (7)By person wrote:

    beautiful

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Monday, October 23, 2006, Jaded Jezzabelle (332)By person wrote:

    just had to tell you again how much i love this and how much we all are missing having your gigantic talent around here to drop poems like this on us !

  • Jaded Jezzabelle On Sunday, October 22, 2006, Jaded Jezzabelle (332)By person wrote:

    this is the rawest most naked honest piece of written magisty...the gods should open up the tree of life and let this feeling that can not be expained be absorbed by us all. hugs to u

  • Sin On Monday, May 29, 2006, Sin (1179)By person wrote:

    beautiful in its sadness...this crushed me ~kristy

  • A former member wrote: this is one of the saddest and most beautiful pieces i've ever read..i had tears in my eyes at the end, yet a smile at the same time, because it's so..happy yet so painful at the same time. god, this was beautiful. i feel lucky to have read this.

  • Dancing_Monkey On Thursday, February 9, 2006, Dancing_Monkey (1288)By person wrote:

    Glad you left this one up

  • nell On Friday, October 28, 2005, nell (287)By person wrote:

    i bit late on commenting i know...ha how we find treaures here..this was such a ...i can't even fidn the right word...sorrowful and exquisitly beautiful piece. very sad and very true. loved it

  • abattoir On Thursday, September 1, 2005, abattoir (116)By person wrote:

    how do you do that.leave another speechless with words.master poet.

  • TropicalSnowstorm On Thursday, September 1, 2005, TropicalSnowstorm (1711)By person wrote:

    Fantastic piece - you captured so many emotions with this one. This affected me as much as Milkweeds and Such, although in a much different way, of course. Scholar

  • TropicalSnowstorm On Thursday, September 1, 2005, TropicalSnowstorm (1711)By person wrote:

    Looking forward to the end of your tour and a few new pieces that delve into your beautiful mind, my friend. Ciao, T/S Scholar

  • A former member wrote: Wow. Forgive me, i am speechless.. Scholar

  • bloody LOVEly On Friday, July 8, 2005, bloody LOVEly (87)By person wrote:

    same...

  • The Crimson Queen On Thursday, January 6, 2005, The Crimson Queen (928)By person wrote:

    this is absolutely amazing! i love this piece! but still very sad........ ~angel

  • A former member wrote: *wipeing tears* holy shit this is soo good. im glad i found it great job..

  • Rachel On Monday, December 20, 2004, Rachel (268)By person wrote:

    Jesus, Worm... I can't believe I didn't read this before. Fuck. Wow. *faves*

  • Alacer_Cogitatus On Tuesday, July 13, 2004, Alacer_Cogitatus (144)By person wrote:

    wow. such a painful way to bring someone together. A_C

  • A former member wrote: awesome, but im so sorry!

  • BoldSolitude On Monday, April 12, 2004, BoldSolitude (214)By person wrote:

    Any words I could say about this would pale in comparison to what it made me feel.

  • hate_doll On Sunday, April 11, 2004, hate_doll (266)By person wrote:

    ::tears up::


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