Things i should have said over the past 18 Years (3May15_21:20)

By BetaWolfinVA

"What is your true age" 
when she first admitted to 
lying 'bout her age
"I love you, but i will see 
you in a few more years, love"
.
"you are the only 
woman i have ever truly 
loved, welcome home, love"
when she tried to move to be near me
when she turned eighteen, truly
.
"i am sorry wife
but i love her more, always
leave me now or stay"
the first time i left first wife
i should never have returned
'
"if you make her leave
i am going with her, dear
i still love her more"
as first wife was trying to 
make me choose honor, not love
.
"How much do you know
About how i feel for her,
how she feels for me,
she does not just live with me..
welcome to the family"
.
as ravens future 
moved into her room, my house 
still never sure that
he is aware that she was
my junior wife at the time
.
senior wife's demand 
that she find her own play toys
did not include that
i could not tell them the truth
'bout non-standard family
.
"Sharing the mornings
before she woke up each day
is something started
by her before you moved in
this was the first time after"
.
"that is why i placed 
myself between her and the 
wall in-case she had
changed her mind since the last time,
and she has forgotten all?"
.
when she asked me what
to tell him when once she woke
smiling to find me
clothed, between her and the wall
having thought he had returned 
.
"i am finally 
free, do you and your husband 
want dinner some night?"
"have never done this before
am i doing it right sir?"
.
contacting raven 
when my first wife set me free.
oral argument
for inclusion in his house
as part of his family. 
.
"i need you and our
little one to come with me 
to memorial" 
pleading with my second wife
on the death of ravens mom
.
"happy birthday love...
i am sorry that i could 
not come without her
to your moms memorial,
could not let you go again"
.
any time today
when my mind was with the one
that i still yearn for
it was so hard not to drive
to baltimore to see her
.
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PoetryComes From a Tilted Mind
Sunday, 3 May 2015, 21:20

 

 

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  • anaksunamun On Tuesday, May 5, 2015, anaksunamun (91)By person wrote:

    I hope that you do not have a child under your care or your wifes care, because you both are not suitable. As I have read your stuff over the years aswell I know you to be an online pedophile 18 is not much different than 17 or 16 just because its the " legal" age doesn't make it right.

  • BetaWolfinVA On Wednesday, May 6, 2015, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    why is it that sellers of alcohol and tobacco products card every one they suspect is below the age of 30 despite 18 being the legal age to buy cigarettes, and 21 the age to buy alcohol? she lied to AOL to get access to the 18+ area where she surfed the profiles, and found mine... she claimed to be 19. After a month of online and phone dating, i was already in trouble when i found out that she was not 19. Scholar

  • TropicalSnowstorm On Monday, May 4, 2015, TropicalSnowstorm (1703)By person wrote:

    I wish you could quit spending the years of your life pining away for something that was, in fact, not what you have turned it into in your mind. Based on your writings, she didn't choose you, but seems to merely show up at random with the sole outcome being to throw your life into turmoil. Let it go brother! Plenty of other fish in the sea...that are actually not already on another hook. You are worth more than that. I think she knows you are prone to fixate and she just needs to throw you a bone every few years, then sit back and watch things burn. That is a lot of power to allow someone. I wish you well...and would love to one day see you post love poems for someone entirely new NOT named Raven. She sounds like a freeloader that played with your emotions, and just shows up every few years to cause drama for you. Scholar

  • BetaWolfinVA On Monday, May 4, 2015, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    she chose me in 1996 tried a few times to come back into my life after she left...but i was always trying to make failing relationships work after she breezed through moved in with my first wife and i in 2003 and was the one that inniated contact in 2012 i was normal, i was free of her... and she triggered my obsession, and i am trying to rebuild my mind again Scholar

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