I Used To
By darkness_descends
A salty sting burns my throat
As I choke down another tear
Falling into a saddened heart
Already broken but still falling apart
There was a time when it was whole
A time when I could feel
A time I used to dream of happiness
A time I used to dream of contentment
All now a faded memory
Recalled only under a teary distortion
I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of pleasure
I used to dream of pain
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide
I used to
Now I dream of darkness
Now I dream of swirling blackness
Now I dream of an endless void
Now I dream of eternal night
Now my dreams are empty
Just like me
This unbearable nothingness taunts me
The thing for which I always yearned
When nightmares chased me as I tossed and turned
The death of human emotions I never wanted
I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of the joy of my last breath
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide
I used to
Now I wish that I could feel
Now I wish that I could cry
Now I wish that I could die
Now I wish that could hurt
Now I wish that I could bleed
If only to know that I am real
I used to dream of life
I used to dream of death
I used to dream of satisfaction through horrified eyes
Gazing upon the scene of my suicide
I used to but now I know they do
And I wish I could dream it all away.
Comments on "I Used To"
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On Tuesday, February 24, 2015, Shikiryu
(70) wrote:
this is really deep, great poem
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On Saturday, September 6, 2003, Aurora_Light
(472) wrote:
dreams and feelings are powerfull great job i oved this write nice job
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A former member wrote:
Bebedora-"Everything returns to darkness", shes so right...happiness doesnt last for long
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On Saturday, September 6, 2003, Crystal Passion
(221) wrote:
Sighness, what pain you must feel, for your words make me feel it. EXJ - Kryz