That Time Again
By The Guardian Angel
"So it's about that time again! You got any plans this year?" He said to
me, a juvial smile plastered on his gleaming face. "I mean you are dating
now aren't you? You gonna give that girl some chocolate?" I chuckled somewhat
and then shook my head. "Nah man, it's just that time for me again." He
looked puzzled before stepping ahead of me and stopping me in my tracks.
"What do you mean 'time for you again'? Don't tell me you're a girl!" "Hell
no man! Why the hell would you think that?" He laughed before letting me
continue on my way, but not before throwing a tease down my way. "Well
no matter what happened to you, it's all in the past right? At least that's
what you always say to everyone else with problems!"
Ever since he said that to me, I haven't been able to stop myself from
thinking about it. All the poems I've written before this, telling myself
that I'd be able to get over it somehow. It's not impossible, as I've found
out the hard way, but is it really possible to go back to the way you were
before? Before I even ask that question though, I guess I have to relate
my issue to you the reader.
Last year, eight days from today, I admitted to my girlfriend of almost
two years that I had cheated on her with one of our best friends, and on
Valentines Day we broke up. I went through a lapse after that, as you can
see through my poems dates. I lost my muse, personality, and almost the
will to live. I won't go and make it seem like I wasn't the instigator
though. I know what I did was wrong, and I won't try to say otherwise,
but whar I felt in that moment... How could it have felt wrong?
So, now it's that time again. It's that time where either I remain stuck
in the past, or finally come out of the shell that I've been stuck in for
this past year or so... Is it all really in the past now? Can I keep going
and finally overcome something that has been holding me back from my full
potential, or will I be hypocritical and not practice what I preach. For
all I know, both tunnels have light at the end of them, but both are going
to be long roads ahead.
And if you still read my poems, then know that I still care for your happiness,
because while we may have broken up, you never said anything about losing
your Guardian Angel.
Comments on "That Time Again"
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On Thursday, February 5, 2015, Flying indigo express
(149) wrote:
The open eye will never close again. A moment of weakness, a lifetime of regret.