Forsaken

I wake up wishing that I hadn't
I force myself to just breath
As I sit up in my bed of thorns
I step onto the floor of nails
I live wishing that I wasn't
But I haven't yet welcomed death
I still have things to live for
I'm hanging on only by my fingernails

My face expressionless
Seemingly devoid of feeling
My heart still beating in my chest
My lifeless form is struggling

Turmoil rages on in my mind
Completely hidden away inside me

Nothing ever seems to change
I hearken to the sound of the beat
Even with feelings of rage
In my mouth is the taste of defeat
I fall to the ground now
Everything I know forsakes me
I wipe the sweat from my bloody brow
As the shadows swallow all that I see

These feelings are so surreal
They haunt me every waking moment
They even dominate my dreams
I can't escape! There's no way out!

How can you be so blind
Don't you see the war I wage inside of me

As I lift my head my eyes meet
Skies painted crimson red
Forget about saving me
Just leave me here amongst the dead
Forgive me, but I've nothing for you
Those around me are all stricken
For me there's nothing you can do
I'm forsaken... UNFORGIVEN!

Now in the end where all is naught
The endless night, where all will be
Every trap in which I was caught
Releases me. I feel so free!
Memories of time spent bleeding
Slowly fading. So comforting.
I close my eyes now. No going back.
As I fall down into the black