Who I Am

Scattered thunderstorms in my mind
Outside it's still the same amount of time
It's been taking me to clear my throat
To speak the truth but I can't I choke
I've been telling lies for far too long
And doing right seems to be so wrong
And deep down I can feel I want a change
But right now I felt way too much pain
To even try to make sense of here and now
To try to ask why? When? Where? And How?
Questioning things seems to be a betrayal to my heart
I'm supposed to be put together but I'm falling slowly apart
How can I when these demons deteriorate me from inside
Out and now I'm truly me no more mask to hide behind
But truth hurts cause nobody is who they seem to be
This interior being comes out hurtful but I'm glad cause it's me
And in the end the only person happy is myself
That tends to happen when everybody ignores the signs for help
So there's really no room for you to complain
When you are just the same, same, same
Depression consumes you when left alone
And now your hollow mind feels like home
Every good part of me is gone now and there's nothing wrong with that
Because I'd rather be who I was meant to be instead of a painted mask