What's wrong with me

Why is it so hard for me just to tell you that I'm sorry I was wrong 
Why is it so hard to trust myself
I'm not the most perfect woman 
Yet you chose me 
To be with me 
To forever stay with me 
Insanity and sickness you chose me
I'm not the smartest person in the world
I'm not the most beautiful woman 
Yet there is something about the way you 
The way you look at me 
When I'm sick 
When I am hurt 
You soothe me 
Even when I hurt you 
Due to my own paranoid mind 
You stay with me even through all 
Through it all, that I do and say
I just can't handle my emotions some days 
You seem to overlook that 
But I still need to know why you have not left
Even when I tell you to go
You just pick me up 
And dry my tears 
Like they are nothing 
You care about me in every way
In every moment 
With a kiss you seal me 
With a hug you enclose me 
With your body you love me 
I am unable to mask myself 
You see through it 
You know me better than the rest 
Better than I know myself 
And through it all
You never once bat an eye 
When I throw myself into a swirl
Swirl of paranoid fears 
Yet I still have the reason to fear myself 
Why haven't you left?
With every time I ask you why 
You tell me time and time again
You love me