'Leaving Hope' behind...

The sound you hear is merely the smoldering remains of my once grand existence.
The smoke rises and drifts aimlessly,
as lost
as my will
 for resistance.
~~~~~~
Words that I had
so longed
to hear
spoken,
echoed loudly across this desolate plane.
Was it all mis-taken?
The dark flame now rekindles, to burn with blinding pain.
~~~~~~
The steam from hot tears against my cheeks
leads to a view through impeded vision.
I allowed my heart
to make a decision,
I again so suffer
the afflictive incision.
~~~~~~
I grasp in vain for even an unstable grip
my reality darkens six hundred shades of grey.
I am now unsure
if I still believe
in tomorrow
or even
want
it
if it's the same as today.
~~~~~~
A
single
thread is
all that endures
I must now cling to it
'til my hands aren't able.
If it too should finally snap
there'll be no reprieve, 'Leaving Hope' and dreams as a fable.
~~~~~~
She made me promise not to drift into the shadows,

I
may
for
the
first
time
ever,
break
my
word.

As the rope keeping me now quickly unravels,

Suddenly
life
in
this
place
just
seems
absurd.
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