Out Of Date.

I fell silent in the depth 
of your lost ambition
and the cold grew 
as you 
slipped through my fingers
hitting the bottom 
of nowhere I wanted to stay

There was monotony 
in the constant onslaught of pain
where it tongue tied itself around my heart 
like repetitive rope

The gem that licked my soul 
devalued as the sparkle dimmed
the edges were too abrasive 
against my tenderness
kissed lips were never met on the ether 
where our spirits would collide 

Decline was inevitable 
moments became harder to swallow

You reflect at times 
in my window pane 
as the rain hits hard

Grey eyes haunting and fathomless 
framed with dark shadows and spider lashes
hair the colour of a Ravens wing
chiseled features that stole my breath

Dark clouds would braid through my emotions 
with every tainted memory
my questions met hesitance 
feeding the doubt rattling the cages of my mind
internal bleeding 
slowly drained away my love 
for you 
from the first cut that you made 
in my veiled heart

your tears 
were only ever for your own emptiness 
whenever clarity echoed
and even today
I don't think you realise 
how much of my love you have lost.