Time Tortures me
By BetaWolfinVA
When first contacted by the one i call raven
i didn't know that i
was much too young
and she was younger still
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when she
finally turned eighteen
she tried to move down to be with me
with
more pride than sense,
i tried to stay with the one that i was dating,
i failed
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by then i assumed that raven was with someone else,
why would she wait for me
i believe i shared her with a legion
of men and women
during those three years
but why would another
man share her with me?
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I then got married to one that had
all the worst qualities of ravens mother
now i believe that i was
punishing my self
for not seeing past ravens marvelous breasts
and intelligent, mischievous eyes
to her much too young face
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in her twentieth year
she moved in with my wife and i
after i called her up crying letting
her know that i was free
she told me to return to my wife
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the rules that my wife
created
when she moved in
made it so that i could look but not
touch
and that raven would find her own man
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in her twenty
first year
because i obeyed her and did not get a divorce
fast
enough to please her
she married one that she could have as her own
and they left my family, leaving me to my punishment
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in her
twenty fourth year
he started to let her play with others, but not
to care
just as i was divorced and trying to find love again
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in her twenty sixth year i was
getting married for the second time
believing that i was happy,
i tried again for love
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in
her twenty ninth year
through much misadventure and chaos
i discovered
that i would never be over her
that i am not sane without her
that
without her life is pain
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in her thirtieth year
should
i drive up to the house that they share
take them both into my arms,
kiss them both, and try for a new tomorrow
or should, i failing
life and love,
-
"life is lighter than a feather
duty is
heavier than a mountain"
is it time to put down this feather
and
fly?
Author's Note:
Time Tortures me, I don't know how much longer i can live without being made whole, when if, raven calls, i will get free. but how long can i wait.Comments on "Time Tortures me"
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On Sunday, February 17, 2013, RibbonHeart
(22) wrote:
This is confusing yet intriguing, so many emotions for so many things. Concentrate on yourself Mister. I try hard not to give my emotions to too many, I find it hard to cope with the very few I hold dear. This reads as a good deterrent for me :P I like the little quote from Wheel of Time by the way, although I believe it is death that is lighter than a feather, not life. But for the purposes of what you have written it makes more sense your way. Keep your chin up mate x
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On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
the origin point for the phrase was the sammurai of old japan... a few of the ones that were deemed to have stepped on it badly enough chose that as their poetic swan song... death/life as the opening line, both would mean the same - living past having failed in ones duty being the harder choice.
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On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, RibbonHeart
(22) wrote:
Ah I see, forgive my incorrect presumption. Always good to learn something new x
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On Tuesday, February 19, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
Robert Jordan did use a variation of this in The Wheel of Time, and i loved his usage of it... :) he was one of my favorite authors :)
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On Wednesday, February 20, 2013, RibbonHeart
(22) wrote:
He was one of mine too :) x
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A former member wrote:
Such a heartfelt poem, more of a letter adorned with hope, sent right into a volcano and burns your heart.
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On Tuesday, February 5, 2013, dwells
(4288) wrote:
Sounds like several opportunities missed, or squandered, and we sometimes obsess on what we cannot possess, cheers!
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On Wednesday, February 6, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
my old frenemy hubris has busted my chops so so many times
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On Tuesday, February 5, 2013, Ravenblade
(313) wrote:
Cameron, something about your style of writing that reminds me of the Dead Poets Society movie. It feels almost classical. Sorry for your torment...I've been through similar, but I don't fathom I was remotely as connected as you were to your 'Raven'
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On Tuesday, February 5, 2013, BetaWolfinVA
(795) wrote:
before i first met raven, i felt misplaced by time 500 years in either direction... after my fall. "a poet outside time, yet trapped by it"