Mixed Signals

By BetaWolfinVA

You destroy my life
-
Then build it up again
leave me alone, and wrap me in your arms
push me away, then hold me as i cry
complain of the pain when we are together
then are hurt when i do as i must
you know that for you i feel more than simple lust
and its true i love another you sent away
-
you are the dark on my soul
that rings with another's name
only to me she has shed all bonds
and from you i do not know if i wish to escape
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simple love
-
i only want you happy,
i only want to be happy
but i have a strange way to find it
with you my stoicism fails
and feelings ranging from rage to hate, to love, to dependence rocket through my mind
-
now that i have found you, you are the anchor that drags me under
and the wings that set me free
-
and, yet, there is always the other woman,
the one that you say you love as a sister
the one that you would not let me lie with past those 2 days
the one that left us for a man she could have, hold, and love
-
even with you in the same room
i feel so alone
hold me

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Copyright THURSDAY, JULY 15, 2004 HHMCameron
Published on Sunday, September 30, 2012.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"

Author's Note:

This is one of the few poems to or about my ex wife, who i will refer to as "porcelain doll"
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  • BetaWolfinVA On Thursday, December 27, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    the events are different but the feelings are the same... will i ever be whole? Scholar

  • Fallenfromgrace On Sunday, September 30, 2012, Fallenfromgrace (104)By person wrote:

    I can relate to pain of separation and loss, accompanied with rage. well written

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, November 17, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    thank you very much :) Scholar

  • Deviated09 On Sunday, September 30, 2012, Deviated09 (90)By person wrote:

    There's nothing more powerful than words from the impassioned heart. Great write

  • BetaWolfinVA On Saturday, November 17, 2012, BetaWolfinVA (795)By person wrote:

    thank you :) Scholar

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