Next of Kin

For so long i heard all about it
I've seen it all
The long speeches
All the certainty of the world
In the trembling voice of an insane woman
The damage done, a torn apart family
Eviscerated with such madness as if it were real
So much violence but nobody knew
It was well hidden, well hidden in plain sight
If only they all could see
Through eyes of screaming silence
If only they could hear
The deafening silence around me

Lucky is the one who died
Maybe that was the only way
God could spare him for what was coming

So many years has passed, so many but still...
Too few to forget
All the rage, all the pain, the seeds of madness
Still rest within
Like a furnace, they burn inside
Makes me cry, makes me scream
But in a language nobody would understand
But i do
I do understand
All the rage's locked up for so much time
It's gaining life of it's own
It got teeth and claws now
And it's willing to come out
In a bloody way

That is my heritage
All treasures of deceased kings
Wouldn't make it go away
Like a dormant beast
It sleeps in my blood and genes

The greenish in my eyes
As well as the madness of my kindred