Circus of Mayhem

All these broken seasons thru out my time
                                               coming in hard on a heavier beat
Trying to see a million miles ahead
                                               on some downtown dead end street
Casual awareness has ended
                                               the useless cards have all been marked
I know they are still out there somewhere
                                               and the bullet flies in a perfect arc

This fragile earth cannot suppress me any longer
                                                I'm an ancient idea that refuses to cry
Caught between eternal fires and hard rain
                                                My secret wilderness is about to die
Pulling certain knowledge into an open blue dream
                                                falling stars no longer fall too far
trapped in a dead girl's surreal time passing
                                                wondering who the rest really are

Clawing at the walls of her early grave
                                                 Her sanity was an abstract gift
seeking the truth of the once and forever 
                                                 watching explosions from a fading rift
The rewards of love are treachery and betrayal
                                                 condemned for your acts of  noble loyalty
Moving violently sideways on a perfect path
                                                 treasured, and forgotten like divine royalty

And leading to my mythical demise
                                                 trapped in a Spiritual mind's live wire
there is no sunshine above the black clouds
                                                only a circus of mayhem on fire
sensing movement in some musical process
                                                All spectral eyes are following me
they whisper in their ancient voice
                                                a warning that something is swallowing me