. . . wish you were here to hear

25th Nov, 2011


Dear Op,

I wish you were here to type something positive back to me...
something to remind me why you insisted I stay... why it all makes a difference.

I can hear you in my head, with a voice I made up for your face that I now know.
Which by the way could never be described as ugly, you dork :P
Funny how I never really needed to see you or hear you but just took solace
in the fact that you were just a dpmail away.  In any case, I'm trying to listen...
trying to keep at it and not trip... but they're hell bent on breaking my ankles and bowing my back... and ripping the heart from me.  Got to love the repeated ninja
attempts..... not.

You told me
"I think you have a heart.  Isn't that what this place needs?
You say that you don't feel worthy. I think you worth more than I could ever give you. So, that kind of squashes the unworthy part."  
but what use is it when they want to paint it invisible?

I could really use a nudge... so wherever you are... if you have a min...
toss one my way, remind me why I keep trying to save that dead horse from another beating...remind me why I shouldn't become a vicious bitch with an eye for an eye mentality...

and don't forget to scootch in after.

much love and respect in both worlds,
N