My Solemn Regret

It was my tears that blotted out the sun
So dark we couldn't see
So cold we couldn't breathe
In the deepest grief I scream.

It was I who held the knife
That pressed against your throat
Don't blame me, my love
You know I had no choice.

I only wish that I could die
Could fade away with you
But if there is one thing that I know for sure-
I do not deserve the peace of death.

And so I lie in ash and mist
The fire burns my throat and heart
I take the smoke into my lungs
Hoping it will kill me.

Vines will grow from all around
Curling around my neck
Binding me to the ground
Sucking my life away.

Bring me close to death, dark world
Let me ever slip
But never ever let me feel
The sav'ry taste of eternal end.

Punish me for what I've done
Lock me here in solitude
No light, no sound, no comfort
I'll suffer here alone.

I'll bleed and burn until the end of time
And then I'll leave this hell
And replace it with another
And even more torture.

Forever these chains will bind me
Where no one can find me
Naked in this ceaseless cold
Suffering inside and out.