Rockstar Life

After more than half a decade
I find it heart stroking
That you still call
And confess dark secrets
That I take, en-wrap in my soul
And bury deep in the abyss.

Each and every time I hear your voice
The memories that we shared
Play over in the back of my mind.

You used to be my dark angel
A demonic crazy god
Who would tear me down
Just as fast as you would lift me up.

We have shared psychosis
And we have shared addictions
And even when so far apart
Our lives were never that far off.

And even when you abandoned me
To try and protect my innocence
I was still exposed to it all
Through others who could care less.

And through everything we have said
Through every fight
Through every trial trying to fix things
Through every cheating moment
And every heart broken apology
We cannot share anything any longer.
Our lives have gone three sixties

There are so many …. I wishes....
That your voice sings over the buzzing phone
And each one makes me smile
Although I should really be crying.
So many revelations that you cry to me
As you realize this is reality
And you are dying.

It took you so long to realize
Where you have fucked up
And you say to me laughing
never become a rock star before you become a rock star
I laugh knowing
The downfall of you was just that
A life a rock star would lead without all the fans
And my dear soul one
I can’t stop repeating it to myself,
It’s not a joke this time,
It’s not funny this time
But we laugh and laugh
Crazed and desperate to ignore the
Pending subject
HIV is always a deadly path