ABC's of my Life

Another affection gone astray, and another affirmation of acceptance.
Beep, beep, beep…beep, beep… beep…beep… … goes my betrayed heart.
Counting on the clock to communicate the confirmation to clarify that this cold corpse already exists.
 
Dismal and delusional.  Darkening and diving into the desire of drowning in death; to just desist.
Eccentric, emotional and embarking on a journey to reach the end of eternity.
Fallacies falling all around, and me falling for them.
 
Giving  gratitude to the ghosts that go where I go for they are the only company.
Hectic holes in the very fabric of this non-hallucinated Hell.
Isolation in effect every day inspires but never conspires to put an end to these illusions of hope.
 
Jealous at the joy that justice gets out of never appearing.
Karma always kicking me without a cause.
Levels of lackadaisicalness elevating, little by little in this lost life.
 
Mercy making a deal with the Devil to make it so that it makes a defenseless man out of me.
Never is the new forever of having someone in this nihilistic nightmare.
Obscure, obsolete and over-driven by obdurate thoughts.
 
Prosthetic heart preferable to prevent pain.
Questionable if these quotation marks will ever be quenched from the word friends.
Relentless they are, especially when they rarely remember me.
 
Scars acquired by solitude sink deep inside my skin.
Traumatized, tormented, and always trying to stop this torrent of thoughts.
Understanding that this will always be my life.
 
Vanishing are the vast hoards of people from my vision, leaving the streets vacant.
Wishing, always wishing but what for?
Xenophobia is  overrated, for strangers do not add more Xs on my heart.
 
Yammering constantly for someone to come save me.
Zzzz... now I close my eyes and lay me to sleep...