"Heavenly Hell"

By T-Nothing

Memories, holding on, trying to let go.
 Delivering, feelings (they're) not gone & I try not to show.
 Fantasy, is all that's left, while dreaming in a world that will never be mine.
 Built up, to get broke down (again) don't worry I'm fine.
 Waiting around, lifeless, for some kinda sign.
 None yet, "did it ring yet?" Goddamn I'm loosing my mind.
 I seen hope in you, ripped away, thank you, you're too kind.
 (I wanna know) What is it I have to do to finally leave you behind?

It's killing me,
 it's healing me,
 it's making me,
 it's breaking me,
 it's totally consuming me!
 Every thought, everyday.
 Why can't i just get away?
 It's what I lived for,
 it's what I (would have) died for.
 It's such a "heavenly hell" that I can't give into anymore!

True, or false, I have the need to tell.
 Win or lose, I must not fail.
 All or nothing, somethings gotta come out.
 One day (soon) I pray, you'll know what I'm talking about.
 I vow, to myself, everything will be heard.
 Every emotion, every statement, every last goddamned word!
 Such a beautiful tragedy to top off my (present) pathetic life.
 Call it conflict (unfair) or what you will, I say another chance to make it right.
 Stay or go I will not have regrets this time.
 It's been a long time coming, think I will speak my mind......

You're killing me
 you're healing me
 you're making me
 you're breaking me.
 You're totally consuming me!
 Every thought, everyday.
 Don't know if I really wanna get away!
 You're what I've lived for
 You're what I'll die for.
 You're such a "heavenly hell" that I must give in to once more!!!


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Copyright 2010 T-Nothing
Published on Saturday, January 9, 2010.     Filed under: "Personal" and "Poetry"
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  • Devilish On Thursday, June 2, 2011, Devilish (2662)By person wrote:

    Damn! Wow... um... speechless!!! how beautiful! Scholar

  • Riven Waker On Friday, July 16, 2010, Riven Waker (323)By person wrote:

    you reveal some intense emotions with vivd clarity in this piece - brilliant, i'd have to say

  • lupus tenebrae On Tuesday, March 23, 2010, lupus tenebrae (872)By person wrote:

    A great write, I love the style, and the fact that such polar opposites coincided as the "heavenly hell", thanks for sharing. Scholar

  • happilydepressed On Saturday, February 27, 2010, happilydepressed (409)By person wrote:

    i liked this write it reminded me of another oxy-moron

  • Malcholm Dark On Friday, February 12, 2010, Malcholm Dark (810)By person wrote:

    A complete and total enjoyment. I like the repetiveness, you said so much. write on.

  • unspeakable truth On Friday, January 22, 2010, unspeakable truth (100)By person wrote:

    Love the contradiction, killing, healing ... making, breaking. Could be love, looks like a drug, but that is love as well now isn't it... So consumed and that resonates through the who piece. Very nice! Scholar

  • Dilated View On Saturday, January 9, 2010, Dilated View (583)By person wrote:

    Powerful emotions and internal struggle. This felt structured to be fast paced and edge of your seat and if that was your intention you pulled it off well. Nicely written.

  • Riven Waker On Saturday, January 9, 2010, Riven Waker (323)By person wrote:

    powerful and elusive verse - brilliant - welcome to DP

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